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tarotgal
Date: 2014-07-29 01:07
Subject: SHERLOCK FIC: A Second Opinion
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Title: A Second Opinion
Author: tarotgal
Rating: PG-13
Warning: Set after Series 2 and before Series 3. There is angst.
Summary: John isn’t coping too well with the loss of his friends—plural.
Notes: Written for [info]tinadp’s birthday. Happy birthday, my dear! This is my gift to you today. I intended to write some Sherlock fic for your birthday but it went a whole lot darker than I’d intended. Oops! I hope you don’t mind, once you finish reading. I didn't even have the time to write this today, let alone scrap it and start over again. So I hope you like it :-) *HUGS*

A Second Opinion )

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tarotgal
Date: 2014-07-23 18:23
Subject: Really sweet thing that happened in the world today
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Trigger warning: death of a pet

You know that Random Act of Kindness where you buy the next person's coffee/fast food at a drive through (I've done it once at the comic book store)? Well, my coworker told me that today his parents back home are putting down the family dog (he is old and has been in pain for a while). As one last treat, they took him on a car ride and went to a fast food drive through to get him a few small cheeseburgers: his favorite. The person ahead of them in line apparently paid for their order (not knowing of course what it was for). So on a very tough day for his family, this kindness was done for them.

So many times little gestures mean more than you think they will or ever know they will.

On a related note, I've been thinking about starting 29 Gifts today (for 29 days, you give one gift to someone every day). I've been thinking about it all week and, actually, that story came to me today after I gave a gift today. So maybe that's a sign that starting today was the right thing to do? I need to do it some time before next next September and maybe this is as good a time as any? I am starting to feel like one of those people I secretly laugh at: the people who say they're going to do NaNoWriMo and then back out at the last minute because it intimidates them. And I only laugh because I was the same way and then I just threw myself in and, only then, realized I'd worked it up in my head to be a much bigger and harder thing than it turned out to be. The best thing to do is just start and it's okay to not know what you're doing. The point is just to do. I've been putting off doing this project for years now, scared I would miss a day or not be able to come up with something or not do it right. It seems like a very emotional/personal journey and I wasn't sure I was going into it with the right understanding of it. I even started reading 29 Gifts a week ago and I joined the online 29Gifts community and asked for advice because I was nervous about not being able to follow the rules and not really understanding if I was even thinking about it right. The advice I got back was almost EXACTLY what I tell people who are hesitant about starting NaNo: just start and everything will work out. So I suddenly realized that, yeah, maybe I should. Maybe it's a bad time to start and I won't make it, but then I'll just try again some time. There's plenty of time to start again between now and September 2015. Who knows? Maybe it will be easier than I've worked it up in my head to be and in a month I will be laughing at myself just like I did when I was scared to try NaNoWriMo. So... yeah. I'm going to try it. I probably won't feel comfy updating my [info]just_the_things journal with my progress about it until I'm a few days in and feel like it's going to work out for me. Today's gift was easy, but I've no idea what to do for tomorrow yet! But... that's the point, right? Don't stress about it, just do. I need to trust in myself and my giving nature that I'll find the right thing to give every day.

Here goes nothing!

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tarotgal
Date: 2014-07-21 01:22
Subject: SPN Fic: Four Hundred Degrees
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Title: Four Hundred Degrees
Fandom: Supernatural
Pairing: None (Gen)
Rating: PG-13 (for swearing)
Disclaimer: Certainly not my guys! No money made!
Meme Prompt: No, Sam, I do not want to breathe in steam, because it's already 300 degrees in the shade and that won't help this stupid cold. Now shut up and leave me alone until Dad gets home.


Four Hundred Degrees )

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tarotgal
Date: 2014-07-19 22:40
Subject: Awwwww
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Should I really find it so adorable when Dean on Gilmore Girls eats a salad? And then wears a hoodie? 'Cause he's totally adorable, right?

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tarotgal
Date: 2014-07-15 00:39
Subject: Top Ten Lists?
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I've totally shot myself in the foot over at http://thefangirlproject.com. I'm running out of ideas for Top Ten Lists, and I'm only finishing up July's lists right now. How will I last the rest of the year? Help! I have a short list of lists I could write, but most of the things on there bore me and make me wonder why I put them on the list to begin with.

Ideas for non-sneeze-related fandom lists you'd like to see me write? Or got a question for me that might be answered via a Top Ten list? Let me know!

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tarotgal
Date: 2014-07-13 16:36
Subject: Torchwood Fic: I Can Take Care of Myself
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Title: I Can Take Care of Myself
Fandom: Torchwood
Rating: PG-13 for swearing & darkness, not sexual content
Pairing: Jack/Ianto, Ianto/other
Disclaimer: NOT my characters! No money made
Meme Prompt: A character travels back in time and happens to run into himself. Only his past self is sick. What's his reaction? "THAT'S what I look like when I sneeze?" or maybe he looks after sick!him/takes care of him or maybe he assumes past-self's identity for a day and does his job for him (or goes on a date for him or something). The possibilities are endless!
Notes: I am a little rusty writing TW fics, so please don’t be too hard on me. Also, this didn’t go at ALL how I’d planned. After [info]ladykorana suggested Torchwood and I thought I’d give it a go, I wasn’t sure when to set it. I finally decided that, it being time travel, to do both time periods. And then… this just happened before I could pull it back.

I Can Take Care of Myself )

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tarotgal
Date: 2014-07-12 20:16
Subject: SPN Fic: Winchester Brother Override Privilege
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Title: Winchester Brother Override Privilege
Fandom: Supernatural
Rating: G
Pairing: None/Gen, though the boys get a little snuggly
Disclaimer: Not my characters. No money made.
Summary: Dean has a cold and gets super clingy. Sam deals.
Notes: I have 3 stories I really, really wanted to write, but this one popped into my head around 1am this morning and wouldn’t let me alone all day!

Winchester Brother Override Privilege )

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tarotgal
Date: 2014-07-08 22:38
Subject: Awesome night is awesome!
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I volunteered at the library and actually went at a normal person pace tonight. YAY! Even with the bending down parts. Bad part is my left leg started acting up. Boo. I kept passing a Cornelia Funke book I've read on one of the endcaps and as I was signing out, I noticed it on a list by the binders. Turns out some of the picklist had been ignored. So I got to do picklist with the new style labels for the first time. That was SUPER FUN! (Okay, I know most people wouldn't call it fun, but I'm being serious here; I was kind of thrilled). Plus there was a terrible, horrible thunderstorm that suddenly started outside and this meant I didn't have to go out in it yet. By the time I was done, it had died down. So great timing.

I walked outside and the sky was yellow! It was still raining out and I thought to myself. "I bet there's a rainbow somewhere..." And looked to the side and THERE IT WAS! SQUEE! I pulled out my camera and took a handful of photos. Then it started raining harder. I ran to my car, got my umbrella, and took another dozen photos. I'm thinking I might be titling my newest book "Hunting Rainbows" and I might be able to use one of the photos as cover art *G* I've been hoping to get a good photo of a rainbow for months now. SO EXCITED!

I stopped by Mom & Dad's to pick up a poster... which I think I left in my car... oops! I might be going out for it in a minute...

Then I went to the grocery store and sang and danced in the frozen foods section to MJ's "Man in the Mirror"

I got home, finally, and heated up Amy's fake meatloaf. I put on the very first episode of Gilmore Girls. I had no idea Jared was in it so early on! IS HE LIKE 10? OMG HE IS SO ADORABLE!!!


In other news, I just started a gratitude journal yesterday at the prompting of friends. It has been 2 days and 3 pages of things I'm happy about so far (several of which are highlighted above) and it's been a good experience. I consider myself a realist, but it's nice to focus more and acknowledge the things that make me happy in a more permanent, lasting way than I have before. I think that's good for me.


Also... rainbows and baby-J both in one day... OH! And not to mention John Barrowman's going deaf for a day video & interview were posted today, which was awesome to watch. And we got a new employee who started today and happens to be hard of hearing. So that was suspiciously coincidental timing.

The only bad thing is that it's 10:30 and I'm only just starting to sit down to do my work for the night... Ugh. That's the problem with putting in an extra hour at the library and then having to run errands around town after that. Bah. But totally worth it. It was a good night.

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tarotgal
Date: 2014-07-06 01:12
Subject: SPN FIC: Ten Minutes
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Title: Ten Minutes
Rating: PG-13 (for swearing)
Fandom: SPN
Pairing: None (Gen)
Disclaimer: they're only mine in my heart. They don't belong to me and I don't make money from this, believe me!
Meme Prompt: Sam and Dean both have colds. Or allergies. Or whatever, as long as they are sneezy. They are in the Impala on the way to a hunt, and one brother voices their concern to the other brother that he doesn't think he can be quiet enough during the hunt, and will put them in danger. An argument about 'control issues' ensues, and this escalates into the boys having a competition over who can go the longest without having to sneeze. Who holds out the longest and what happens next is up to you :)


Ten Minutes )

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tarotgal
Date: 2014-07-04 21:56
Subject: Don't hurt my car... happy 4th?
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I've seriously just turned into that creepy housebound neighbor who is worried/pissed when people set off fireworks too close to her car outside her house. Hrmmm. *pulls back blackout curtains, peeks out between blinds*

I seriously think they're too close to my car. And I'm SO not the person who'd say/do anything about it.

In other news, I spent today reading, napping, pinning on Pinterest, and watching Roots for the first time (I only have discs 1-4; 5-8 are on hold at the library). Happy Independence Day :-)

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tarotgal
Date: 2014-07-01 22:28
Subject: How to fangirl responsibly
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Loved this bit from a Vlogbrothers video I just came across:

"If you buy something from us and it makes you less financially secure, I am not happy. Don't do that. No."
~Hank Green


That being said, I totally support [info]cowboyguy's recent TARDIS pillow purchase *G* A pillow is always a good investment. I'm just saying. *snuggles up with all the pillows and blankets*


Speaking of which, this was my nest for 5 days after my surgery, sitting & sleeping here: http://365project.org/katekintail/365/2014-06-13
(oh, poor upside-down pillow pet panda; I should have taken a better photo, but I was still a bit out of it that day)

Also, for those of you who asked (and those who didn't), this is what happened to my closet while I was in my parents' basement recovering: http://365project.org/katekintail/365/2014-06-12

And this is what my closet is now... clothes hanging off the loft railing outside my bedroom: http://365project.org/katekintail/365/2014-06-17



Also, Hank wearing a Save Ginny Weasley HatP shirt to the TFIOS movie was kind of epic; I love those guys. DFTBA.

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tarotgal
Date: 2014-06-22 21:28
Subject: Weekend To Do List
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For the first time in my entire life (or at least in recent memory) I have completed my entire weekend To Do List in a single weekend. Okay, I didn't get much laundry done... but I didn't even put that on the list. Of the 24 items I put on the list for the weekend, I just checked the last one off the list a few minutes ago.

Had a GREAT weekend. I rested. I watched Mario Marathon almost nonstop. I napped. I crafted a bunch of things. I slept lying down for a little while. I played a bunch of BubbleMouse I won a game of Cards Against Humanity. I crafted. I FEEL GOOD. I haven't even seen the outside through a window since Friday afternoon (I can only assume the outside is still there).

I don't feel much like writing, but I've got some time to kill tonight, so I might give it a try and see what happens. I'm down to, like, 10 prompts I want to write. LOL

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tarotgal
Date: 2014-06-20 21:03
Subject: Stairs! I can has them!
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I just walked down stairs and it didn't hurt! First time since the surgery I've been able to do it pain-free. Whee!

I've still got pain still, but not nearly as much. And I'm soooo happy about this trip down the stairs!

Last night, I was walking and I think I might have bounced a little in my step or I took too deep a breath or both at the same time and I felt such a horrible pain below my largest incision. I don't know what it was. It lasted about a minute so intensely. And then it backed off a little and hurt for another few minutes at a lower level. But... yeah... I took my phone out and almost called 9-11. It hurt more than it did after surgery. But then it passed.It still hurts in that area a little bit, but not much. I have no clue what it was still. Muscle spasm? Muscle hitting something it shouldn't? Something exploding in me? I've got no clue. *sigh* But this is why I'm going to take it easy this weekend even though I made it down the stairs successfully. I hope to soon be able to lie down to sleep! (I can lie down, I just can't get up afterward, which is terrifying, so it's best to not put myself in that situation).


On another note, ugh, my car failed state inspection and needed new brakes. I was hoping that maybe, with all my health expenses, this year fate would be kind to me. Alas, that was too much to ask for. But my car is happier now. So no worries.


Also, I'm thinking of a new series on my blog where I have photos of my stuffed Eeyore from his various adventures. I don't know if it's fandomy enough... but I took a photo of him today and got inspired to share more.

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tarotgal
Date: 2014-06-15 21:11
Subject: SPN FIC: Dean Hearding
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Title: Dean Hearding
Author: tarotgal
Fandom: Supernatural
Pairing: None (Gen)
Rating: PG-13
Disclaimer: not my boys. Well, I mean, I adore them, but I don’t own them or make any money from this in any way
Summary: Dean hearding is harder even than cat hearding.
Prompt: Written for my comment fic meme in 2014. Huge storm approaching causes Sam & Dean to pull over at the nearest motel. There isn't one. But they do find a Bed & Breakfast with one available room. Problem is, the storm gets out of hand and it's not safe to leave. So they're stuck in this house for several days. With possibly strange or possibly awesome other people and the owners of the B&B. And with whatever food supplies were on hand. And with several cats. Which make one of the boys sneeze. A lot. And there's absolutely no chance going out for allergy pills.


Dean Hearding )

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tarotgal
Date: 2014-06-15 00:18
Subject: Another boring post about my recovery
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Good news: I made it home today to stay! Did I mention I visited home on Thursday? My closet collapsed in my absence, so I have to deal with that some time. But not today. I packed up and Mom drove me home. Then she drove me to Walmart and grocery store (and to release a Flag Day BookCrossing book at a nearby flagpole; I love my mommy).

Bad news: it was a little more than I should have done in one day (soo many trips in and out and sooooo much walking). So I'm going to have to take it easy for the rest of the day/night. I think I'm going to still sleep upright, because getting up from a lying down position HURTS. But it sure is nice to be back home again.

I liked being in my old house and spending time with Mom (Dad is in Tanzania, so she was happy to have the company). It was fun watching hockey with her, especially last night. What a great end to a season. One day my boys will win the cup. But, in the meantime, I enjoy watching series where I don't have any personal investment and can just enjoy good hockey.

Things that HURT:
* Sitting up from a lying down position
* Getting into the car (or any sideways bendy movement, really)
* Coughing (SO MUCH PAIN!)
* Sneezing (just experienced... was terribly painful)
* Laughing (sooo terrible. I keep making the mistake of watching funny things. So Modern Family is totally out until the pain goes away).
* Standing or walking for more than a few minutes at a time
* Going down stairs (up is fine)

Things I LOVE:
* Netflix
* Having a laptop now instead of a desktop computer (first time I ever really made good use of that)
* Undershirts that keep my pants from rubbing against the stitches every time I move
* ALLTHEPILLOWS (currently, I seem unable to survive without a minimum of 5 pillows, though if you count couch cushions and pillows together I've been using 9 to prop myself up to sleep each night)
* Soft blankets (I've been snuggling with 5)
* The refillable ice pack the hospital gave me that is lighter than mine
* Amy's vegan meatloaf (it has been one of the foods I've been able to eat since my stomach probs started. I tried eating it last night and it was fine on my tummy! YAY! Real food!)
* Borrowing my mommy's cats for cuddle sessions on the couch
* My mommy, for taking good care of me
* My friends for sending me happy thoughts and posts and messages and emails


Tomorrow I hope to master driving, but we'll see how that goes. I'm hopeful. The literature says don't drive for 3 days, and it's been more than that. And I'm definitely feeling better and stronger. If I can drive tomorrow, I'll probably go to work on Monday, at least half the day, because we have an HR thing mid-morning.

On another note, I've started feeling well enough to do more than use the mouse... which means I can write a little (not a lot, but a little). I finished two short meme fics today. I also finished Orange is the New Black. And I read 6.5 yaoi mangas for a future bookbox. And I played a buttload of Snack Jack games. And I got my inbox down to 570 emails (it was over 84,000 in March and over 7,000 before my operation). And I watched Despicable Me 2 (which was HARD because I couldn't laugh but wanted to). And I spent a long time on Pinterest. So easy to just sit and click while watching netflix. Pinterest geek boards are good therapy :-) So was the SPN marathon on TNT. Definitely much-needed. I look forward to a really slow, relaxing day again tomorrow. I just sat down in my desk chair for the first time since Monday and I'm comfy sitting here. So that's another first :-)

Thanks again for the well wishes, everyone!

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tarotgal
Date: 2014-06-13 12:29
Subject: Feeling better
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Had some rough moments since the surgery. I'm still at my mom's house (not allowed to drive until I'm off the pain meds, which I am as of yesterday evening). Ready to go home and finally feeling better.

I woke up this morning to "Dad's on a hunting trip, and he hasn't been home in a few days." I watched SPN Season 8 eps on TNT from 9am-noon on Wed and Thurs and was expecting to watch the first few episodes of season 1 today... but MARATHON! I should have guessed, but had no idea. This is what I miss when I'm at work on Fridays. LOL So those two remaining eps of Orange is the New Black Season 2 are going to have to wait until this marathon is over... at, what, 8pm? But that's when the hockey game is on. So... they'll still have to wait.

Anyway, yeah, feeling SO much better. Finally. Still in pain and it hurts to walk/move but sooooo much better. I look forward to one day being able to sleep lying down instead of sitting straight up, as I have been for the past 3 nights. It hurts to type, so I haven't been on the computer much.

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tarotgal
Date: 2014-06-10 17:57
Subject: Made it through!
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In so much pain an nauseated, but made it through alive. Just wanted to let y'all know

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tarotgal
Date: 2014-06-09 21:05
Subject: Thank you all!
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Thank you all for such nice comments to my latest posts here. *hugs* It means a lot that you're thinking of me and rooting for me.

I'll post as soon as I can to let y'all know I'm all right. I love you guys!

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tarotgal
Date: 2014-06-06 23:28
Subject: WHAT A DAY!
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I was woken up way before my alarm by the phone. It was my mother saying something was wrong and that she needed to go to the hospital. I threw my clothes on and raced out the door and drove over. By the time I got there, like, 12 minutes later, she'd called an ambulance. And that arrived about 3 minutes later. I walked the dog (his blood sugar has been super high lately so if we don't let him out ever 2-3 hours he has an accident, poor old guy) then headed to the hospital. I stayed with Mom most of the morning, popping out periodically to call the vet and my dad who was supposed to leave for Africa this afternoon. Great timing!

Mom said she felt better in the ambulance and fine by the time she got to the hospital. But they kept her in to run tests, just in case. Dad had a heart attack a couple months ago and it'd be just like Mom to want one of her own ;-)

I headed home around 10:30 to walk the dog again and feed the cats. Then I drove to the vet to get emergency meds to last the dog through the weekend because he was supposed to get retested today and, obviously, Mom couldn't bring him in for that. So I got his meds, headed home, and wolfed down two fake sausage patties and some watermelon squares while checking work email. My boss had an urgent password problem so I spent 15 minutes tracking him down through everyone I could think to call in the office.

Then I headed back to my parents' place to give the cats and dog their 1pm medicine, while filling Dad and my sister in on what details I had. Dad got home halfway through that and we made sure he had his passport and called a cab to take him to the airport.

I got to work a little after 2 and worked as fast and hard as I could. I'm going to be out most of next week, so I'd been hoping today would be a day where I'd get all the big stuff done ahead of time. That wasn't to be. But I got all the important stuff done. Whew. I left at 5, swung by my house for Saltines and Gatorade (isn't that what most people take to the movies?) and then got to my parents' house. I walked the dog then fed the cats and fed him, sneaking a pill into his food. Then I put down the seats in my car and drove him to the vet for his insulin shot (which Mom always gives him).

The people at the vet love my mother (she practically lives there) so they were all really concerned and sweet. And they showed me how to give him insulin in case I needed to do it at his 6am injection time.

I got home and gave two more of the cats their meds... it went great for one but not for the other. I've never seen so much drool come out of a cat and go all over him and me. Poor baby.

As I was heading out the door, there was a phone call from Mom. They were going to discharge her! YAY! So my sister went to pick her up and I went to the movie.

Where I laughed soooo much and cried sooooo much (only 10 tissues, though. I brought 3 whole packs but only needed one). Beautiful movie. I really liked it and am glad I saw it.

I just got home at 11pm and realized I hadn't eaten breakfast or dinner (or a proper lunch). Soooo... dinner time now! I called Mom and she's doing fine. They held her for observation just to be sure but after several rounds, they couldn't find anything wrong with her... except that the CT scan showed gallstones! HA! Also, fun fact, the woman who came to verify her identity/insurance/address and all lives right across the street from me! HA! *shrugs* NOVA!

Anyway, it was an exhausting day. I didn't have a single second to relax. But Mom is fine and the animals survived under my care. And my dad made his flight. And I got to see the movie. So it was a good day, in all. I'm just glad my mommy's okay. And glad it's the weekend! I plan to do a lot of stuff (like laundry) that needs to get done before I'm down for the count for a few days-to-a-week.

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tarotgal
Date: 2014-06-05 20:55
Subject: Goodbye, Gallbladder
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So I just got home from another GI (who was super sweet and quiet and good at listening; I like doctors who listen). He read through my 28 pages of test results (which didn't include the two recent blood work batches, the X-Rays, or the CT scan results) and examined me and asked a bunch of questions. He recommended that I get my gallbladder out, even though my symptoms aren't typical for that.

So, I'll be having the surgery next Tuesday. I'm going to spend the next few days writing out passwords and instructions just in case things go horribly wrong. But it's pretty routine, as far as surgery goes, so I'm only a bit worried. Mostly, I'm just hopeful that this will fix part of me. I'd love to be able to eat and drink like a normal person again. Not that I don't love bananas and applesauce and saltines and rice... but after 8 months of that, I'm losing way too much weight and I have no energy. Also, my stomach did bad things the last two times I ate rice. *sigh*

Anyhoo, I got test results from my MRI yesterday as well. I don't know what they mean because I don't speak medical, for all my h/c love, but there are words like tear and unusual convexity... so it sounds like the MRI definitely picked up something that might be causing the problem I've felt in my hip for the past 20 years. Would be awesome if it could be identified or even fixed as well!

But, first the gallbladder surgery. Then we'll see where we are. I just bought the special soap I'm supposed to start using on Saturday/Sunday. And I'm going to try to get all my work for next week taken care of today and this weekend so that I don't have to worry about it next week when I'm recovering.

I'm still going to see the Fault in Our Stars tomorrow night... I expect to cry through the whole thing :-)

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